panic.

this is an example timeline of what it feels like when i am having a panic attack type of moment:i can’t think straight.my thoughts are fast, fragmented, confusing, disjointed, random, overwhelming, relentless & usually not based in any form of reality, logic, or reason.i feel worried.i feel hot.i wonder if i’m just hungry or too… Continue reading panic.

father.

seems more than appropriate to write about my dad today. here are some facts & stories about my father & our relationship: during my childhood my father made enough money to provide for our family without my mother having to bring in an income herself. my mother’s job was providing primary childcare as my father… Continue reading father.

blurry.

sometimes i feel like i blink & everything around & within me has morphed into something i no longer recognize. i feel as if i have awoken & emerged into a new world. whether it’s because i was deeply engrossed in a project for work or i had gotten lost in a book or become… Continue reading blurry.

fear.

some questions i’m asking myself today:what are my goals?what am i currently doing to accomplish my goals?could i do something differently to be more successful?do my actions contradict my goals? i fear sometimes i am a bit frazzled & lose sight of what i’m actually trying to do. i get distracted by what i perceive… Continue reading fear.